"If you look back on any space of time when you were really stretched out and particularly challenged, there’s always been a sequence of people or things you just weren’t well-versed enough in yet, or things you needed to have more humility about, or things you needed to have more trust in."

-amazing artist/actor/inventor/writer/singer/dancer/lunatic Robert Downey Jr.

things are ending, starting, uncertain, overwhelming, limiting, limitless, exhilarating, terrifying... way too quickly, way too slowly, creeping along, leaping and bounding..... WOW.



waited all my life for this day to come
i feel like letting go
life goes on
wasting no more time
so much to be done
everything works out
so they say
over my shoulder
it's tough getting older

here before my eyes
many roads ahead
time for me to choose one way now
if i take a chance
what lies down the road?
feeling so confused
turned around
on and on
on and on

seems like nothing is black and white anymore
shades of gray and i feel a weight over my shoulder
it's tough getting older
i always thought that i knew where i'd want to go
now i'm here and i find that i'm still getting colder
it's kinda tough getting older



seems like everyone (including myself) needs a hug these days..
so here's a BIIIIIG one from me to you:
((((( HUUUG )))))
everything will be okay.


..this too, shall pass.

it takes 29347862397329478 million tons of energy to get me outta my apartment these days and actually DO things... like go to class, library, get food, etc.  i justify it by saying that i'm getting rest, saving money, eating healthier, and enjoying my quiet time being productive at home........ when in reality i'm laying on my bed, loathing myself for my slothful ways, eating haribo gummy bears by the handful, and watching keeping up with the kardashians (gawd, it pains me to admit that.. what the asdf is it about that show? the shame.... ). :chuckle:

and thennnn i have days like today when i'm out the door early in the morning with a million things on my to-do list - take a final, study, meet up with friends, write papers, make phone calls, etc etc. and it never fails in reminding me how much i love being busy and feeling like i really accomplished something throughout my day.

if only i could remember this feeling always. hahahah

one final down. 3 more to go. and then i'm done w/ uc berkeley!

AAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!